Wed, 28 January 2026
In this pair of talks, Fr. Anthony examines why discernment so often fails in the Church—not because of bad faith or lack of intelligence, but because discernment is a matter of formation before it is a matter of decision. Drawing on insights from intelligence analysis, psychology, and Orthodox anthropology, he shows how authority, moral seriousness, and modern systems of manipulation quietly exploit predictable habits of perception, producing confidence without clarity. True discernment, he argues, is neither technical nor private, but ecclesial: formed through humility, ascetic practice, and participation in the Church’s communal rhythms, where judgment matures over time through accountability, repentance, and shared life in Christ. --- Talk One: Why Discernment Fails Introduction Brothers, I want to begin today not with Scripture or a Father of the Church, but with a warning—from someone who spent his life studying failure in complex systems. Nassim Nicholas Taleb, in The Black Swan, writes this: “You cannot ignore self-delusion. The problem with experts is that they do not know what they do not know. Lack of knowledge and delusion about the quality of your knowledge come together—the same process that makes you know less also makes you satisfied with your knowledge.” (pause) Taleb is talking about intelligence analysts, economists, and technical experts—people who are trained, credentialed, experienced, and entrusted with judgment under uncertainty. But if, just for a moment, you change one word in your mind—from expert to priest—the danger becomes uncomfortably familiar. We wear cassocks instead of suits, but the temptation is the same. Not arrogance. A Necessary Pastoral Safeguard Before we go any further, I want to be very clear—because this matters. Taleb is not accusing experts of pride. And clergy live permanently in complex systems:
The danger is not that we don’t care. A Lesson from Intelligence Work When I worked in military intelligence, there was a saying—half joking, half deadly serious: The most dangerous person in the world is an intelligence analyst in a suit. At first, that sounds like gallows humor. But it isn’t. The danger wasn’t that analysts were malicious. And here’s where psychology matters. Robert Cialdini has shown that one of the strongest and most reliable human biases is deference to authority. People are far more likely to accept judgments when they come from someone who looks like an authority—someone in a suit, a lab coat, or standing behind an official desk. Jonathan Haidt adds something crucial: people formed in conservative moral cultures—cultures that value order, continuity, and tradition—are especially inclined to defer to legitimate authority. That’s not a flaw. But it carries a cost. Because when authority speaks, critical perception often relaxes. They trust. And they trust in a way that they, like us - the ones who guide them - feel connected with the truth and the Source of all truth. But in our fallenness our sense of certainty may be driven by something other than a noetic connection with the deeper ontological of truth. Scripture about the devil appearing as angel of light (2 Cor 11:14-15) and wolves going around in sheep’s clothing (Mat 7:15) are not just designed to keep us from trusting everyone who offers to speak a good work; a spiritual meaning is that our own thoughts can be deceptive, appearing as angelic and meek but lacking true virtue. All of this, combined with the seriousness of our calling, should reinforce our commitment to pastor humbly and patiently, erring on the side of gentleness … and trusting in the iterative process of repentance to bring discernment and healing to those we serve. From Suit to Cassock In intelligence work, the suit mattered. When a priest speaks—especially confidently, decisively, and with moral gravity—people don’t just hear an opinion. They receive guidance. And that means any blind spot—any overconfidence, any unexamined habit of thought—does not remain private. It spreads. Why This Is Dangerous (and Why It Is Not an Accusation) This is where Taleb’s insight comes sharply back into focus. The most dangerous situation is not ignorance.
Taleb is not accusing experts of arrogance. They are describing how human beings actually function. And clergy live precisely at the intersection of all three forces:
Which means discernment failures in the Church are rarely loud or obvious. They are usually calm, confident, sincere—and despite this, still wrong. And unfortunately, still dangerous. We are susceptible to the same temptations as everyone else. In order to serve well, we need to cultivate a combination of humility and confidence: confidence because we are called and trained to do this work; humility because we are not experts in everything, are still incompletely formed, and the problems in our communities and in this world are incredibly complex. Another Lesson from Intelligence: this time, counterintelligence The challenge of being right all the time is not just that we can’t know everything, but that there are powers of the earth and what I call the marketers of the air that are trying to manipulate us. And, alas, not matter how serious or smart or well-educated we are, we are still vulnerable to their wiles. During the Cold War, American intelligence analysts and operatives were taught to keep everything they could about themselves private. This was because we knew that the spy agencies of the Soviet Union were actively collecting information – what we called dossiers - on everyone they could so that they could develop and exploit opportunities to use us. The Soviets didn’t need to convert us. They needed:
Their dossiers were less about facts than they were about about leverage. And it worked. My first assignment in the Army was as an interrogator. It was a similar deal there. The work of getting information out of someone gets a lot easier when you have information about them, about their histories, about their fears, about their motivations. And here’s the unavoidable turn. Today, advertisers, platforms, and political actors possess dossiers that would have made Cold War intelligence officers and interrogators weep with envy. They know:
And clergy are NOT exempt from their data collection or their use of that data. In fact, we may be especially vulnerable, because we are tempted to mistake moral seriousness for immunity. And advertisers, platforms, and political actors with all their algorithms do not do this alone. The fallen powers of the air have been studying us and our weakness even longer than Facebook. More committed men than us – here I think of St. Silouon when he was young – have fallen victim to their machinations. And now they have more allies and useful idiots working with them than ever. Porn addiction and religious polarization – even within Orthodoxy – show that these allies (BIG DATA and the DEMONS) are having their desired effect. Discernment Is Not Being Bypassed—It Is Being Used Here is the hard truth. Most modern manipulation does not bypass discernment. It works because:
This is not a technology problem. It is a formation problem. Psychological Bias Is Not a Moral Failure At this point, I could list all the biases that set us up for failure:
But that would miss the deeper point. Biases are not bugs. They are features of an untrained mind. And the Church has never believed that the mind heals itself through information alone. Which brings us to the Orthodox diagnosis. Discernment Is Formational, Not Technical In the Orthodox tradition, discernment is not a technique for making decisions. It is the fruit of a formed person. And that formation involves the whole human being and all three parts of the human mind: the gut, the brain, and the heart. The Gut / The Passions This is the fastest part of the mind. In our default state, it is the real decision-maker. It reacts. It is trained by repetition, not arguments. If this part of the mind is shaped by:
Then discernment will always feel obvious—and often be wrong. Orthopraxis trains our gut through the repetition of godly habits:
The Brain/Intellect This is where narratives are built. In our default state, it justifies the decisions and instincts of the gut. It is vulnerable not to ignorance, but to selectivity. This is where proof-texting lives. And here St. Paul gives us a crucial criterion: “All things are lawful,” but not all things are helpful. The danger is not that clergy cannot justify what they do. The danger is mistaking justifiability for discernment. Orthopraxis here looks like:
The Heart / The Nous The nous cannot be controlled. It is healed, opened, and attenuated only by grace. In our default setting, our connection with God through the nous is narrow or closed, and we are prone to mistaking the movements of our passions – often called our conscience – for revelation and divine inspiration. Orthopraxis here is simple, but takes time to gain traction:
The Quiet Conclusion of Talk One So here is the point I want to leave you with now: Discernment is not something we do when the need to make a decision appears. It is a facility we are developing long before the decision arrives. Taleb helps us see the danger. But none of this happens alone. Which brings us to the second talk— It is ecclesial.
Talk Two: Discernment Is Ecclesial Communion, Authority, and the Social Formation of Perception Introduction Brothers, Earlier, I spoke about why discernment fails. Not because priests are careless. But because discernment is formational, and formation always happens somewhere—whether we are paying attention or not. Now I want to take the next step. If discernment is not merely a personal skill, then the question becomes unavoidable: Where does discernment actually happen? And the Church’s answer has always been the same. Not in isolation. But in communion. The Myth of the Independent Discerner Earlier we spoke about discernment as formation—about how perception is trained long before decisions appear. Now I want to push that insight one step further. Because even if a person is well-formed, the Church has never believed that discernment belongs to individual insight alone. And here it is helpful—perhaps unexpectedly—to look at how knowledge actually works in the modern world. A Brief Detour: How We Actually Know Things Some people imagine the scientific method as the triumph of the lone genius. But that is not how science works. Individual scientists propose hypotheses. But no discovery becomes knowledge until it is:
When science works, it only does so when individual insight is embedded within a community of accountability. Without that community, science collapses into speculation, ideology, or manipulation. We have seen that very thing happen right before our eyes. I still hope that the system can be reformed. But it can’t without individual and systematic repentance. I hope that happens. The Ecclesial Parallel Even at its best, the scientific community is a pale shadow of The Church and its system of both individual and communal discernment. Individual Christians—clergy included—receive insights, intuitions, and perceptions. But those perceptions only become discernment when they are tested:
This is why discernment in the Church is never merely private, even when it feels personal. We know this about the Ecumenical Councils, but it needs to be built into the way we live our lives and govern our parishes. Why the Independent Discerner Is a Myth Isolation does not produce wisdom. It produces clarity without the possibility of correction. And clarity without correction feels an awful lot like discernment—especially to the one experiencing it. And surrounding ourselves with people who always agree with us is not better than isolation. We saw how that affected science when came to the climate and COVID; we can’t be so proud as to think we aren’t susceptible to the same sort of self-rightous group-think. Authority Does Not Cancel Accountability Earlier we spoke about authority and trust. That deference is part of the deeper harmony. But it creates an asymmetry: All of us need to develop relationships with people who both think differently than we do and whom we can trust to correct us in love and in a way that we can hear. Ideally this council of advisors includes our wives, confessors, and a cohort of brother priests. Discernment Does Not Reside in a Brain Discernment does not primarily reside in an individual mind. It resides in a body. The Church does not possess discernment as a technique. Clergy as Hosts of Discernment When it comes to leadership, clergy are not just decision-makers and teachers. We are witnesses, hosts, and facilitators of discernment. We shape environments. Who are we to have such control? No one. We do it in the Name of the one who deserves such power, this must be done humbly and sacrificially – and by sacrificially, I don’t just mean the sacrifice of our time but of our ego and sometimes even the sacrifice of our justifiable preferences and opinions. To paraphrase St. Paul once again, all things may be justifiable, but not all things are useful. And in another place he makes the same point, saying; “though I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love” it’s all just just noise. And the world doesn’t need more noise: it needs signal. I believe that the fact that we are not smart enough or consistent enough to get everything right all the time is a feature, not a bug. The people we serve need to see us make mistakes; not so they can see that we are only human (that’s pretty obvious), but so that we can truly witness to them what discernment and repentance look like. We shouldn’t make a lot of mistakes, and we should certainly avoid making the same one twice, but a zero-defect culture is a cult, not a community. And cults are neither healthy nor sustainable. The Liturgical Ecology of Discernment Discernment is not trained by intensity. By:
The Quiet Conclusion of Talk Two The Church does not promise us freedom from error. She promises us a way of life in which error can be healed. Discernment is not a tool for avoiding mistakes. It is a way of learning how to dwell truthfully with God and one another. And that dwelling—like Eden, like the Temple, like the Church itself—is always shared.
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Wed, 21 January 2026
From Eden to the Church Christian architecture is not primarily about style or preference. The Church building is Eden remembered and anticipated—a place where heaven and earth meet, so that God’s people can be formed and then sent back into the world. Key Biblical Insights 1. Eden Was God’s Dwelling Place Eden is first described not as humanity’s home, but as God’s planted garden—a place of divine presence, beauty, and order.
2. Eden Is a Garden and a Mountain Scripture explicitly identifies Eden as elevated sacred space.
3. Eden Is a Source of Life Life flows outward from God’s dwelling.
4. Eden Is Not the Whole World Eden is placed within creation, not identical with it.
5. Humanity’s Original Vocation Human beings are called to guard sacred space and extend its order outward.
6. Gardens and Groves as Sacred Space After the fall, God’s presence continues to be associated with cultivated places.
7. Sacred Space After the Fall God re-establishes Eden’s pattern through mountains and temples.
8. The Church as Eden Continued The Church gathers the patterns of Eden—mountain, garden, throne, and life-giving water—into one place so that God may dwell with His people. 9. Eden Fulfilled, Not Abandoned Scripture ends with Eden expanded to fill the world.
Why Architecture Matters
Takeaway Architecture is theology you inhabit.
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Sun, 18 January 2026
Luke 17:12-19; The Grateful Leper I've included my notes, but I didn't follow them, choosing instead to offer a meditation on the "go show yourself to the priest" part of the Levitical command and noting how we do the same - and will all do the same one day at the Great Judgment. Homily: Healing, Vision, and the Mercy of God Onee of the things that sometimes gives people pause—especially when they encounter it for the first time—comes from the Book of Needs, in the prayers the priest offers for those who are sick. If you have ever been present for these prayers, you may have been surprised by what you heard. We expect prayers like: “O Lord, raise up this servant from the bed of illness and restore them to health.” And those prayers are certainly there. But woven throughout are repeated petitions for the forgiveness of sins. And that can feel jarring. But the Church is very intentional here. Imagine this: a person is lifted up from their bed of illness, restored to perfect physical health—yet still carries unrepented sin within them. Outwardly, they look alive. Inwardly, they are not. They are, in a real sense, a living corpse. On the other hand—and this is harder for us to accept—someone may remain physically ill, yet live in Christ: healed in their soul, united to Him, walking in holiness and freedom despite bodily weakness. That person is truly alive. Our Lord Himself tells us not to fear those things that can harm the body, but to attend to what shapes the soul. We often joke that it might be easier if spiritual states were visible—if holiness and sin showed up like physical symptoms. Imagine walking through the world able to see, immediately, who was struggling, who was wounded, who needed gentleness or prayer. But most sins are hidden. We become very good at concealing them. Some sins, however, are easier to spot. A habitual drunkard, for example, eventually reveals himself. And there is one sin in particular—one we often excuse—that Scripture treats with great seriousness: the sin of speaking badly about others. In the Old Testament, what we translate as leprosy was often not simply a medical condition but a visible sign—a manifestation of sin made public. Not every skin disease fell into this category, but some did. It was a way God taught His people: what you carry within eventually shows itself without. Consider Miriam, the sister of Moses. She was a holy woman, faithful, devoted—yet when Moses acted in a way she did not expect, marrying a foreign woman, she spoke against him. She gave herself over to resentment and gossip. And the consequence was immediate and unmistakable: she was struck with leprosy and sent outside the camp until she was healed. The warning is clear. How different would our lives be if sins like gossip and disparagement were marked visibly upon us? We would recoil at such exposure. Yet spiritually, those signs already exist. And in our time, this sin has become not only habitual, but normalized—especially through social media. Even among Orthodox Christians, we see people eager to label one another heretics rather than first seeking understanding. The slow, patient work of charity has been replaced by accusation. To those with noetic vision—spiritual sight—these sins are as visible as white blotches on the skin. So how do we examine ourselves? One test is how we respond to criticism. But another, deeply revealing test is this: Do I love my enemies? Scripture gives us another powerful image in the story of Naaman the Syrian—a pagan general afflicted with leprosy. He obeys the prophet Elisha, washes in the Jordan, and is healed. More than that, he turns to the God of Israel with gratitude and humility. He even takes soil from the Holy Land so that he may always remember whom he serves. But then we see the tragic contrast: Gehazi, Elisha’s servant. Greed overtakes him. He lies. He exploits grace for gain. And the leprosy that left Naaman clings to him instead. Grace rejected becomes judgment. And finally, we see the greatest transformation of all: St. Paul. Raised among God’s people, zealous for the law, Paul persecutes Christ Himself. He bears the unmistakable mark of sin—not on his skin, but in his actions. Yet the Lord blinds him, then restores his sight. And what does Paul do? He does not presume upon grace. This is the heart of the Gospel. We live in a world filled with sin—not only in its dramatic forms, but in the everyday ways we break trust, speak carelessly, and nurture resentment. These are our leprosies. And yet, the Lord sees us in our affliction. He restores us to His image. But healing is not the end. Gratitude must awaken into a new way of life. God is not interested in transactional thanksgiving—“thank You so You’ll give me more.” That is manipulation, not love. True thanksgiving becomes wonder. To see a cup of water and marvel not only that it quenches thirst, but that water exists at all—that matter itself has been sanctified by Christ. To see every person we meet—not first as a problem to be solved or a sinner to be exposed—but as an icon bearing divine potential. Yes, we notice sin. But we see through it—to the good that can be nurtured. That is how God treats us. If we think we are proclaiming the Gospel by beating people down with their sins, we are mistaken. Repentance requires a vision of the good. People must know what they are called toward, not only what they must turn away from. This is how we pastor one another. And when we do this, we stand with that Samaritan leper—foreigners ourselves to the Kingdom—yet welcomed, healed, and restored. May the Lord open our eyes—our noetic vision—so that we may see the grace that permeates all things, the divine logoi present in creation, and the glory of God shining wherever we are able to bear it. And may He grant us the strength to see more, day by day. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.
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Wed, 14 January 2026
Beauty in Orthodoxy: Architecture I In this class, the first in a series on "Orthodox Beauty in Architecture," Father Anthony explores beauty not as decoration or subjective taste, but as a theological category that reveals God, shapes human perception, and defines humanity’s priestly vocation within creation. Drawing extensively on Archbishop Job of Telmessos’ work on creation as icon, he traces a single arc from Genesis through Christ to Eucharist and sacred space, showing how the Fall begins with distorted vision and how repentance restores the world to sacrament. The session lays the theological groundwork for Orthodox architecture by arguing that how we build, worship, and inhabit space flows directly from how we see reality itself. --- The Beauty of Creation and the Shape of Reality: Handout Core Thesis: 1. Creation Is Not Only Good — It Is Beautiful Beauty belongs to the very being of creation. 2. Creation Is an Icon That Reveals Its Creator Creation reveals God without containing Him. 3. Humanity Is the Priest and Guardian of Creation Humanity mediates between God and the world. 4. The Fall Is a Loss of Vision Before a Moral Failure Sin begins with distorted perception. 5. True Beauty Is Revealed in Christ Beauty saves because Christ saves. 6. Creation Participates in the Logos Creation is meaningful and oriented toward God. 7. The World Is Sacramental Creation is meant to become Eucharist. 8. Beauty Takes Form: Architecture Matters Sacred space forms belief and perception. Architecture is theology made inhabitable. Final Horizon --- Lecture note: Beauty in Orthodoxy: Architecture I When we speak about beauty, we often treat it as something optional—something added after the “real” work of theology is done. Beauty is frequently reduced to personal taste, emotional response, or decoration. But in the Orthodox tradition, beauty is none of those things. Beauty is not accidental. It is not subjective. And it is not peripheral. Tonight, I want to explore a much stronger claim: beauty is a theological category. It tells us something true about God, about the world, and about the human vocation within creation. Following the work of Archbishop Job of Telmessos, I want to trace a single arc—from creation, to Christ, to sacrament, and finally toward architecture. This will not yet be a talk about buildings. It is a talk about why buildings matter at all. Big Idea 1: Creation Is Not Only Good — It Is Beautiful The biblical story begins not with scarcity or chaos, but with abundance. In Genesis 1 we hear the repeated refrain, “And God saw that it was good.” But at the end of creation, Scripture intensifies the claim: “And God saw everything that He had made, and behold, it was very good.” In the Greek of the Septuagint, this is kalá lian—very beautiful. From the beginning, the world is not merely functional or morally acceptable. It is beautiful. Archbishop Job emphasizes this clearly: “According to the biblical account of creation, the world is not only ‘good’ but ‘very good,’ that is, beautiful. Beauty belongs to the very being of creation and is not something added later as an aesthetic supplement. The beauty of the created world reveals the generosity and love of the Creator.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 2: Creation Is an Icon That Reveals Its Creator If creation is beautiful, the next question is why. The Orthodox answer is iconographic. “The heavens declare the glory of God, Creation speaks. It reveals. It points beyond itself. Archbishop Job reminds us: “The Fathers of the Church affirm that the world is a kind of icon of God. Creation reveals the invisible God through visible forms, not by containing Him, but by pointing toward Him. As St. Anthony the Great said, ‘My book is the nature of created things.’” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 3: Humanity Is the Priest and Guardian of a Beautiful World Genesis tells us: “Then God said, ‘Let us make man in our image, after our likeness.’” And Psalm 8 adds: “You have crowned him with glory and honor. Human dominion here is priestly, not exploitative. Archbishop Job explains: “Man is created in the image of God in order to lead creation toward its fulfillment. The image is given, but the likeness must be attained through participation in God’s life.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 4: The Fall Is a Loss of Vision Before It Is a Moral Failure Genesis describes the Fall visually: “When the woman saw that the tree was good for food, The problem is not hunger, but distorted sight. Archbishop Job writes: “The fall of man is not simply a moral transgression but a distortion of vision. Creation is no longer perceived as a gift to be received in thanksgiving, but as an object to be possessed.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage:
Big Idea 5: “Beauty Will Save the World” Means Christ Will Save the World (Pantocrator) The Psalms proclaim: “From Zion, the perfection of beauty, And Revelation declares: “Worthy is the Lamb who was slain…” Archbishop Job cautions: “True beauty is revealed in the self-giving love of the Son of God. Detached from goodness and truth, beauty becomes destructive rather than salvific.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 6: Creation Contains the Seeds of the Logos The Psalms declare: “By the word of the Lord the heavens were made.” Archbishop Job explains: “The Fathers speak of the logoi of beings, rooted in the divine Logos.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 7: The World Is Sacramental and Humanity Is Its Priest “The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof.” “To Him who sits upon the throne and to the Lamb…” Archbishop Job writes: “The world was created to become a sacrament of communion with God.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Big Idea 8: Beauty Takes Form — Architecture as Consequence and Participant Genesis begins with sacred space: “The Lord God planted a garden in Eden.” And the Psalms confess: “Lord, I love the habitation of Your house.” Archbishop Job writes: “Architecture expresses in material form the vision of the world as God’s dwelling.” Pastoral expansion: Theological lineage: Conclusion “Behold, the dwelling of God is with men.” Creation is beautiful. Beauty reveals God. Humanity is its priest. How we build reveals what we believe the world is—and what we believe human beings are becoming.
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Sun, 11 January 2026
Homily: The Sunday after Theophany This homily explores repentance as the doorway from darkness into light, and from spiritual novelty into mature faithfulness. Rooted in Hebrews and the Gospel proclamation after Theophany, it calls Christians to become not sparks of passing enthusiasm, but enduring flames shaped by grace, sacrifice, and hope in the coming Kingdom. ---- Today’s Scripture readings give us three interrelated truths—three movements in the life of salvation and theosis. First: darkness and light. Point One: Darkness and Light In today’s Gospel, St Matthew quotes the prophet Isaiah: “The people who sat in darkness saw a great light; This is not merely a poetic description of history. It is a diagnosis of the human heart. Scripture teaches us that our calling as human beings—our calling as Christians—is to become “children of the light and children of the day.” Light is not something we admire from a distance. It is something we are meant to live in, to be shaped by, and to reflect. Darkness, in Scripture, is not simply ignorance. It is disorder. It is the twisting of desire. It is the heart turned inward on itself. And Christ comes—not merely to expose darkness—but to heal us of it. That is why today’s epistle begins by reminding us: “Remember your leaders, those who spoke to you the word of God; consider the outcome of their life, and imitate their faith.” (Hebrews 13:7) Light becomes visible in lives that endure. The Christian life is not meant to flash briefly and disappear. God desires something steadier—not sparks, but flames. Point Two: Repentance — Leaving the Darkness Immediately after this proclamation of light, Christ begins His preaching with a single command: “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.” If we want to be part of the Light of Perfection, then the darkness in our lives and in our souls must be removed. Repentance is not optional. It is the doorway into illumination. Here we must confront a deep confusion in our culture—and often in our own hearts. We have the relationship between happiness and goodness exactly backwards. We tend to think: “It is good for me to be happy.” But Scripture teaches the opposite: The epistle warns us: “Do not be led away by diverse and strange teachings; for it is well that the heart be strengthened by grace, not by foods.” (Hebrews 13:9) Indulgence does not strengthen the heart. Novelty does not strengthen the heart. Only grace does. There is a danger here for neophytes because Orthodox is novel for them; there is an experiential conflation of the happiness that comes from new fascinations and their new connection with The Good Itself. More on this in a moment. Back to repentance. Repentance is how the heart is strengthened. It is how the flickering light of intention becomes steady. The iterated acts of repentance that constitute the Christian life is how God turns sparks into flames. Repentance and Tears This will bring tears. Christ does not say, “You have suffered enough—come get comfortable in the light.” He says, “Repent.” Repentance is rarely pleasant. We do not repent because it makes us happy, although it occasionally will in the short term; again, because of our fascination with things that are new and shiny. But regardless, we do not repent for happiness; we repent because the darkness that has accumulated in our souls cannot survive in the presence of the Light and we want to grow in that light. And that is going to involve suffering on account of the darkness that is within us; a darkness that has often come to define us. The epistle reminds us: “So Jesus also suffered outside the gate in order to sanctify the people through his own blood. Therefore let us go forth to him outside the camp, and bear the abuse he endured.” (Hebrews 13:12–13) Repentance means leaving what is familiar and comfortable. It means stepping outside the camp. It means allowing the old life to die so that a new one can endure. Point Three: What Children of the Light Do Christ does not defeat the devil in the wilderness and then rest. He immediately begins His ministry. And so must we. We do not hide the light God has given us. We let it shine. And because we have been given different gifts, we shine in different ways. But we must be clear about the direction of this life: “For here we have no lasting city, but we seek the city which is to come.” (Hebrews 13:14) Children of the light do not live for momentary brightness. They live toward the Kingdom. God is not basing the establishment of His Kingdom on bright flashes of enthusiasm; He is forming it on the constancy of the saints—not sparks, but flames. Marriage, Monasticism, and Mature Joy Many people experience spiritual puppy love when they first encounter Christ and His Church. And thanks be to God for that—it is a real gift. But puppy love is not the same thing as mature love. The Church teaches this most clearly through marriage and monasticism. Marriage matures love through patience, forgiveness, sacrifice, and daily fidelity. Both proclaim the same truth: Hebrews names this life plainly: “Through him let us continually offer up a sacrifice of praise to God… Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God.” (Hebrews 13:15–16) This is the rhythm of mature Christian life—ordinary faithfulness, repeated again and again, until the light no longer flickers but until we all bear and share the eternal flame that is God’s energies, constantly working through us and transforming us and this world towards His perfection in an ending tide of theosific grace. This is how Christ forms His people: not sparks, but flames. The Call All of us are called to worship, and if we are new to this the spark of our participation is infinitely greater than the darkness we once new — but it is still only the beginning of life in Christ. We have been given great gifts—individually and as a parish. We must guard against using them just to make ourselves feel good, and start using them to bring light. May Christ, the Light who has dawned upon us, make us children of the day— In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
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Sun, 4 January 2026
Homily – Repent… and Change the World Sunday before Theophany This is the Sunday before Theophany, when the Church sets before us St. John the Baptist and his ministry of repentance—how he prepared the world to receive the God-man, Jesus Christ. John was the son of the priest Zachariah and his wife Elizabeth, the cousin of the Mother of God. When Mary visited Elizabeth during her pregnancy, John leapt in his mother’s womb. But what we sometimes forget is what followed. While Zachariah was serving in the Temple, the angel Gabriel appeared to him and foretold that his son would be filled with the Holy Spirit from his mother’s womb, that he would turn many of Israel back to God, and that he would go before the Lord in the spirit and power of Elijah—preparing a people ready to receive Him. That preparation came at great cost. When the wise men later alerted Herod to the birth of the Messiah, Herod ordered the slaughter of all male children two years old and under. John would have been among them. Elizabeth fled with her son into the wilderness. When soldiers came seeking the child, Zachariah refused to reveal his whereabouts and was martyred between the temple and the altar. Elizabeth soon died, and John grew up in the wilderness, emerging years later to preach repentance and prepare the way of the Lord. John’s ministry brings us toward the heart of Theophany. This feast reveals humanity’s true relationship with creation. From the Fall onward, mankind failed to live according to his calling. Creation continued to respond as God ordained, but human sin distorted that relationship. Christ alone entered creation without sin, and so creation responded to Him with blessing, not resistance. As we sing at Theophany, “The Jordan was driven back.” The corruption in the water fled from His presence, and the waters became holy. This is not only Christ’s work—it is also our calling. United to Him, we are meant to bring healing and grace to the world. But first, we must listen to John. First, we must prepare. And preparation begins with repentance. This is the calling of the Baptizer: “REPENT!” Why is repentance so necessary? Because even when we want to do good in the world, our inner lives are disordered. Without healing, our efforts—however sincere—can miss the mark or even cause harm. This is not because we are evil people, but because we are wounded people living in a wounded world; because we are corrupted people living in a corrupted world. Without repentance, our action in the cosmos – here represented as the Jordan – is corrupting rather than salvific. A story may help. In nineteenth-century Vienna, infant mortality was tragically high. Doctors were educated and well-intentioned, yet many babies died under their care. Ignaz Semmelweis discovered why: doctors who washed their hands before delivering babies had dramatically better outcomes. Those who did not—even with the best intentions—were spreading disease. Many doctors resisted this discovery. They were offended by the suggestion that they were unclean. But the truth remained: no matter how good their intentions, if they did not wash their hands, they caused harm. It is the same with us. We have tremendous power to change the world—with our time, our money, and our love. But if we have not allowed God to heal us, we will unintentionally pass along the wounds we carry. The Church teaches that this wound affects and disorders every part of us. This includes the three parts of our mind. First, it affects and disorders our desires. We were created to desire what is good, true, and beautiful, but over time those desires become confused. We begin to crave things that promise comfort or distraction, yet leave us restless and unsatisfied. Much of modern life is built around amplifying these cravings, which makes it difficult to recognize how shaped we have been until we step back. Second, it affects and disorders our thinking. We all rely on ideas and narratives to make sense of the world, but we absorb far more than we realize—from media, culture, and the people around us. Even when we know manipulation exists, we often assume it affects others more than ourselves. Learning to think clearly and truthfully takes time, patience, and humility. Third, it affects and disorders the heart—the spiritual center of the person, which the Church calls the nous. It is meant to perceive God and discern what leads to life. But the heart, too, becomes clouded. Instead of clarity, we experience confusion; instead of peace, anxiety. This does not mean the heart is useless—it means it needs healing. This is why repentance is required. Repentance is the decision to stop pretending we are already whole and to place ourselves where healing is possible. So repentance cannot remain a vague desire. It must become practical—like doctors washing their hands. That means first stepping away from what continually stirs and infects our wounds. Cut back on social media. Reduce news consumption. Step away from political and religious commentators who thrive on outrage. If something is truly good, it can be added back later. Right now, many of us need distance so our discernment can recover. We need some boredom so that we can recover our sanity. Second, we need to return to the basics. The prayers and services of the Church are reliable. They are not entertaining—but they are not meant to be. We are addicted to stimulation, and healing requires quiet faithfulness. After prayer comes Scripture—not commentary about Scripture, but Scripture itself. And then silence. Instead of constant noise, spend time working quietly, reading a good book (a book free of targeted advertising), or simply being still. Another part of repentance is restoring the rhythms of daily life within our homes: cooking together, cleaning together, eating together, talking, working, and resting together. These ordinary practices form character and community—precisely what the world works so hard to replace with habits that isolate, distracts, and exhaust us. Let me conclude simply. Without repentance, we carry our wounds into the world and pass them on. With repentance, Christ’s healing flows through us into our families, our parish, and our communities. This is why the voice of St. John the Baptist still echoes today: If you are new to the Church, remember this: repentance does not mean hating yourself or trying to fix everything at once. It means turning toward Christ and trusting Him enough to let Him heal you. The Church gives us safe and reliable ways to begin—prayer, worship, Scripture, and a quieter life. Stay close to these, and over time you will find that Christ not only changes you, but also begins to heal the world through you. This is the sacramental reality of Theophany. |
